Friday, September 19, 2014

Adoption at Mass

My heart always skips a happy beat when I hear the word "adoption" at Mass. Especially lately as I'm having trouble being patient. I'm SO excited and happy for friends getting matched with little ones, and for those finally getting pregnant after going through infertility...Praise God! 

But it seems like our wait is dragging on f.o.r.e.v.e.r.  Trying to remember that God does have a plan for us in the midst of the waiting and unknowns, considering that October marks five years since we've been trying to start a family.

Lately, we've been hearing "adoption" as Mass more often. 

Here are two beautiful prayers I've heard recently:

"O Lord, who gained for yourself a people by adoption
through the one sacrifice offered once for all,
bestow graciously on us, we pray,
the gifts of unity and peace in your Church.
Through Christ our Lord."
- Pray over the Offerings, Twenty-First Week in Ordinary Time

"O God, by whom we are redeemed and receive adoption,
look graciously upon your beloved sons and daughters,
that those who believe in Christ may receive true freedom
and an everlasting inheritance.
Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son,
who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit,
one God, for ever and ever."
- Collect, Twenty-Third Week of Ordinary Time

Love the Collect! Through adoption we become God's beloved sons and daughters, rather than slaves to sin. Alleluia! And, we pray for continued freedom and the hope of heaven. Amen!!!!!!!

It turns out that Fr. Z, a popular Catholic blogger, offers a beautiful reflection on the history and meaning behind this prayer. It was an 8th century prayer used during the Easter Season. Love how our liturgical prayers have such rich history.

As we wait to complete our home-study and hopefully adopt, it helps to remember that adoption is more than just a human is an integral part of God's plan for salvation.

Monday, September 8, 2014

The Straw

These past few months we have been faithfully plugging away on our home-study and working on our profile book. I am getting more and more excited about adopting.

Us. Actually. Adopting.

I was sharing my growing excitement yesterday with a friend. It feels good to have flutters of hope throughout the day. It also feels scary. Scary because I'm fearful that there will be another roadblock around the corner. 

Today we hit the roadblock. Our home visit (the last thing needed in our home-study) was supposed to be two weeks from today. It now has to be rescheduled for two weeks later because of a scheduling conflict. 

In my head I totally understand. Two more weeks. Not a big deal, right? Especially when we've already been waiting five years to become parents. This is just part of life.

Today those extra two weeks are like the straw that broke the camel's back.

I have been counting down the days to completing our home-study since we first met with our agency last April. We hoped to start the home-study in May and finish it in June. Now it is September. There are so many things we still need to do that are contingent on our home-study being complete. Paperwork we need to get done and a fee that will increase as of October 1st. Now we will be paying the higher fee and be limited in the extra paperwork we can work on.

I know God will bring good out of this, but I'm sick of roadblocks. I'm tired of waiting. I'm worn out from having to fight so hard to become parents.

Thank goodness for the closing prayer from the Magnificat this morning:

"O God of justice and of love, You care for Your people in every time and place, despite our tendency to stray from you in our foolishness. Keep us in your care from morning until evening, that we may come to rest safely in the shadow of Your all-powerful wings."