About a month ago I was reading the gospel for the day; it was Jesus washing the disciples' feet at the last supper (John 13:1-20).
One verse really stood out to me. Peter was protesting Jesus' washing his feet, and Jesus responded: "What I am doing, you do not understand now, but you will understand later" (John 13:7). Jesus continued on to wash the disciples' feet and set an example of humble service.
"What I am doing, you do not understand now, but you will understand later."
There are so many things in life that I don't understand. Infertility. Major roadblocks in our hopes to adopt. Family and friends dealing with difficult illnesses, lack of employment, or other circumstances that seem hopeless. So many people in the world experiencing poverty or living in the midst of war and turmoil.
I just don't understand. I don't understand why we have to go through IF, I don't understand why others have their own equally difficult trials.
But maybe thats ok. Maybe its just par for the course on our earthly journey towards holiness. After all, Peter walked the earth with Jesus for three years, and even he didn't understand! Three years, that's 1095 days with Jesus Christ, Son of God! In that time Peter saw Jesus preform miracles, raise the dead, preach, and teach. Yet, Peter did not understand what Jesus was doing. But Jesus promised Peter, "You will understand later."
Jesus' response to Peter encourages me. Even if I don't understand my circumstances, and why God is allowing certain things in my life, or in the lives of those I love, I will understand later. It might not be until heaven, but at some point in the future I will have a supernatural outlook, and I will be able to see things with a "God's eye" view.
Hopefully understanding will come sooner rather than later. Hopefully soon I can see circumstances as God sees them. But, in the midst of the confusion and asking "Why?" I am comforted to know that Peter felt the same way too.